I’m doing this “listen to a record a day” project on my music blog, and I’ve been finding myself too depressed to work on it lately. I’ll find reasons to put it off and I’ll end up doing two days in one to make up for it.
I did have to work unexpectedly tonight, but it was such a terrible day that I just have no energy to write up reports on this stuff. That means I have to do three tomorrow, plus skype my friend (which was supposed to happen tonight but…work), plus clean my house for when my boyfriend and friend come to stay for a few days, plus…probably something else I’m forgetting. All while working 5-7 hour shifts in between all of this.
Also, working with a truly incompetent employee at work makes me SO disagreeable and it took everything in me not to yell at him. That’s not like me, I’m a nice person to just about everybody I meet (exceptions being those who are mean to me first obviously) and I hate that he gets to me like this but working with him is actually taking a serious toll on me. I’m always extremely irritable both during and after our shifts together, I come off as rude to him when just saying the simplest of things/instructions, and I get blood-boiling angry just being within two feet of him so I try and stay wherever he isn’t. He was pissing off customers tonight too though and I just don’t get paid enough to babysit him/clean up after him AND do all the tasks required of my job (it’s just a shitty Subway job, nothing really important).
I also get really upset when my boyfriend doesn’t text me after six hours of nothing from him. I know he does stuff when he’s away, but it bothers me sometimes that he doesn’t always make an effort with me. Sometimes I think he has more fun away from me.